I don't need a "guardian angel." Many children have clear memories from age two, the more emotioanl, the clearer the memeory; as well as Eldest*, who is older than me, did talk up to a certain age and Mrs. Troll*, in her fits, often yelled things about what had happened. The point of this is that they always told me these were "Family secrets" and that no one else would understand. They told me to lie but now I am telling the truth.

I have been asked what happened to Mr. and Mrs. Troll* and the siblings. So far as I know and I don't have contact with them, Mr. and Mrs. Troll live in Florida. He would be in his seventies and she is close to that. Eldest* got badly involved in drugs and alcohol while in high school and went into the Navy for awhile which didn't help. Later, he and his then wife, who had two kids from her previous marriage (I don't know if they had any more),moved in with the Trolls before their move to Florids. Mr. Troll had access to those children but I don't know their sexes, ages, or anything else about them. I don't know if they are still married or where they live. Princess* went to college and got her Masters degree. Last known she was living in the Midwest with her husband. I know she wanted kids but don't know if she ever had any. Baby*, while in college, was found by the police wandering by the road in winter barefoot quoting the Bible. He was diagnosed as bipolar and sent into therapy. Last known he was living with the Trolls. The last contact I had with either Eldest or Princess, the conversations were sterile, awkward, and uncomfortable. Neither one of them acknowledged what I had been through (in that house there was no "we") and they did not talk to me. As for as any extended family, I have no idea where they are, who might still be alive, and they have no idea where I am. I feel my maternal grandmother in Iowa suspected and possibly Aunt Alice but my grandmother passed away a few weeks before I turned fourteen and the secrets were kept.